Dying From Anxiety!

Thanks for joining me this week, hope your all doing well. The year has just started I’ve had good news bad news in between news. My anxiety levels are going through the room with all the things that’s already happened to me this year we are still in the first month, but this is life it’s hectic at times.

It’s a thing these days 1 in 5 people live with anxiety but don’t speak about it we just suffer in silence, not sure if it’s fear of judgement or we don’t want to be seeing as weak! Whichever it is we need to break the silence anxiety attacks can lead to other life threatening situations like heart attacks, brain aneurysm induced by the stress our bodies under go.

So it’s imperative to minimise the levels of stress we put ourselves through on a day to day bases, our mental health affects our way of life, when you feel good about you it makes us want to work on us, eat better, exercise go get the degree. But we must work towards our goals as do we need to work towards better mental. Put structures & mental health goals or plans in place always make sure their realistic & obtainable.

Dying From Anxiety

Am moving house it’s so stressful I underestimated how much pressure it would be I’ve been hallucinating, hearing voices, crying, shouting, over sleeping, oh yeah not getting enough sleep at times. So to say am having a rough time would be a start. Things are going right then they go wrong am starting to just go with the flow tbh.

Taking it one day at a time, homeschooling is helping me focus & blogging while working keeps me occupied, something for me to keep my mind from going into total over drive, must keep busy also I want to accomplish something with the stress am feeling use it in a positive way.

Depression isn’t normally 𝗡𝗢𝗧 far when your anxious when you start withdrawing from day to day life. Guess isolation is the number one reason we become depressed. It’s a vicious cycle you want to go out but when you try to, your heart pounds so fast, tightening of the chest, sweating, panicking feeling as though your going to die.

There are people you can talk to I know it’s feels as though the world is against you it 𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗬 𝗜𝗦 𝗡𝗢𝗧 it’s 2022 there are lots of alternatives for treating mental ill health. Here are some of the options cannabis is used to treat depression ( medicinal cannabis ) is used in some countries, you can try talk therapy, there are self help guides my best advice is to speak to a mental health professional ( 𝗜 𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 schizophrenia), if you have anxiety it maybe a sign that there a underline mental health disorder / disorders. So don’t self diagnose or self medicate knowledge is the key to everything.

At the moment I have minimise how much am going out being careful how much contact I have with the outside world, as am having trouble with my own thoughts already I need no more negative input or input of any sort even positive from the outside world.

My voices sound just like you speaking to your friends, face to face or on the phone only I can’t hang up, they are loud confusing at times drowning them out seems impossible right now. I feel someone touching me on my neck but no one’s there when I turn around then the anxiety attacks kick in charming this is.

Wanting to sleep but can’t tossing turning going crazy 😜, feeling itchy & irritated like I have something to do but I just can’t remember what it is. Man I can’t wait for this to pass, while I share what I feel my head gets Louder traitor they say, I should die because am a bitch, these voices are hard to cope with but I live with them each and every day.

Am Crystal I Am A Schizophrenic!

Living life with three kids is sure colourful with schizophrenia some days an child like some days so serious, I can go from sad to happy as quick as the weather can change. This leads me to why I love & appreciate my children especially my son who is 15 his never judged me nor used my illness against me his understanding, caring & supportive he makes me want to get up his sisters make me believe in me no matter what they see the good in me & now I see the good in me even while am having a blip like now the strength to share my story is because of the support of my children.

When others say be silent they say speak, you call me crazy they say I love you mommy. My world 🌎 all I have want & need. Am I lonely no do I think I deserve them not always. My mum guilty is so bad I think they deserve a better mom one that doesn’t get sick or flight off the rails one who isn’t so hyper at times as-well.

Be sure to speak to your children also for our children to confide in us we must earn their trust, set boundaries while given then a judgement free space to express their emotions as children suffer with mental ill health all the time sometimes sadly we don’t notice until it’s too late, Act now save lives. Yes sometimes it’s not just teenagers being a teenager it’s better to be safe than sorry as my Nan would say, or prevention is better than cure.

Thank you for reading please leave your comments and share my post let’s get the message around that there is nothing wrong with mental health let’s save some lives together.

𝗣.𝗦 𝗽𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗹 𝗺𝗲 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗲𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗶 𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗺𝗶𝗹𝘆. 𝘅𝗼𝘅𝗼🥰😘