Nice to be back A lot has happened since my last blog but I’ll bring you up to speed slowly….
Life comes with hurt pain and betrayal, doesn’t mean you have to lose who you are heck the pain can create a superhuman, helping you realise the worst things can actually be the best thing that happened, after the storm your grateful that you were hit with life so hard you need that shake up.
No why did this happen to me you heal and say this was needed yes it made me sad angry broken however it was needed for you to see things you wouldn’t have seen otherwise, you are surprised how strong and truly amazing You are because even you thought this experience was going to break me, the thought that this is it the last straw am going to die.
But then you get stronger, strength you didn’t know you possess you start accomplishing things you couldn’t for years you start walking away from situations, people and things you thought you would run too because your hurting because your angry because your lonely instead you cut them off.
You find peace and acceptance when you weren’t meant to be at peace your mind becomes still your even thinking wtf because ain’t I meant to be broken physically mentally emotionally, am meant to be confused, I should be lonely hiding MY pain in a bottle with friends who were never worthy of your loyalty, I should be mad that no one is there for me after you spent years supporting them. But instead you say I would rather cry than call them, I’d rather die than pretend with anyone because you know they mean you no good. Now you’re meant to run to them and complain how they don’t care they are acting better than you they are evil, instead you say i ain’t pretending I wasn’t meant to be a part of that tribe, I wasn’t meant to be apart their circle we don’t vibe.
You stop calling them and you start growing instead of hiding behind substances somehow you quit even while you experience pain like no other, you find peace your no longer willing to allow noise just because you’re being loyal, helping not prepared to sit or be caught visiting these people you don’t hate them your not angry at them…. You notice your happier because you deleted their number and disengaged from what was infecting you and holding You back.
Are you curious about their lives good or bad no when at your lowest point and the pain it’s over bearing not even once did you think let me call this one let me visit them…. Noticed you don’t think they’re rejecting you they’re bad friends, not once did you think I want I never was there for them you no longer feel the need to say hello… You deffo ain’t explaining what your going through you ain’t seeking nor giving advice, instead of loyalty to others your loyal to you “light switch moment” that crap was holding me back . You shine bright ya need some sun glasses your shine is blinding lol 😂
Even when you see them in person or on social media you scroll your not even curious about how their life is or anything like a post you see that is of no interest to you what do we do you scroll until you see one that makes you laugh or is of interest to you..
You don’t think oh wish I never helped them no one cares about me why Is this happening to me instead you start showing gratitude. Thinking I am glad this happened as crappy as it is I’d never have reached my maximum capacity, I wouldn’t have known how strong I am, you’re kicking bad habits when you thought you would be an addict forever, you don’t support people especially when you didn’t even like the choices they made and tbh with yourself they disgusted you the lives lead the way they are you never agreed with it.
The hurt can break or transform you, no longer do you feel angry your actually more comfortable and content then you’ve ever been even when you had everything it wasn’t this peaceful the things your learning about you makes you proud ya stop and say “yo fam am a badass”.
Fam I didn’t know I could accomplish that before you notice your starting becoming the best version of yourself, you only help those who deserve your help started not to be a slave to loyalty… If ya don’t agree with something ya get rid of it instead or supporting…. your not sacred of loosing anyone or anything because you learnt through lost you became your best self…. You are shocked at how strong and amazing you are feeling well arrogant because you didn’t break ⛓️💥
lost ain’t always a bad thing if you take accountability for what you’ve done, don’t be disloyal to your views don’t allow fear to control you dear yourself to walk away from certain things instead of running towards it.
You stop accepting things because society, says that’s loyalty! that’s what makes you a good person/friend! Don’t allow yourself to be enslaved by obligations!!!
Change that mindset and I promise you your transformation will even have you breathless ✌️
See you soon 💝 I missed You….
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